Yesterday I had a little blogging crisis. Well, maybe that’s overly dramatic. But I just had this moment when I thought, “Why am I doing this?”
I constantly struggle with defining my blogging goals. Sure it would be great to have a large following, to write a book, to make money. But realistically… Where can this go?
200 MILLION blogs are floating out there in the interwebz. Am I silly to think that anyone might care about what I’m writing?
I began blogging by telling myself that it was a good way to fill time between phone calls at work. So, it didn’t matter if I was any good at it, or if anyone read it. Because it was just a way to pass time.
I’ve been blogging for seven months now and I still have no idea what I’m doing… I’m constantly worrying that my blog doesn’t look good enough, my content isn’t unique enough, my writing isn’t funny enough, I’m not networking enough…. I’m not good enough.
And like an answer to my question, something happened last night.
As I was obsessively checking my stats, I saw that someone had found my blog by searching “cowboy casserole cornbread.” Okay, I’ve gotten several Google hits since I made the move to WP but I’ve never been able to figure out where my post ranked. However, this time I was on the first page of search results.
If you’ve been following me for awhile, you may know that I’m not particularly religious. But I do certainly believe that there is something out there greater than all of us. And that everything happens for a reason.
It sounds ridiculous now, but it was like a sign. I felt reassured. And just maybe I was doing something right. And while blogging is just a hobby right now, maybe I could go somewhere with this someday. And even if I never become a big ‘ol fancy blogger, I can at least enjoy the successes I do have.