Traditionally, I am VERY anti-trends. The more people are doing something, the less I want to do it.
I’m no Freud, but I suspect it has something to do with some deep seeded need to be DIFFERENT and AWESOME and ultimately kill myself fighting a battle against conformity that is unwinnable.
And I’m finding that after 33 years of waging a war against an idea, I’m exhausted.
I haven’t totally given up and started reading books about vampires, but I have bought riding boots and I *may* be wearing them with skinny jeans. It’s all a result of this new thing I’ve been trying called Lowering My Expectations. It’s part of the reason why I haven’t been blogging. And definitely why this recent Christmas was the best in my adult life.
So I’m embracing the cliché of New Years Resolutions and making a list of things that I want to do for me. And I’m not even going to worry about them being organized into a “theme” like I’ve done in the past. (Deep breath)
1. Give up my daily Dr Pepper ~ I’m all about All Things in Moderation, but the Dr Pepper habit is out of control and it’s time to give it up.
2. Quit smoking – for realz ~ This is quite possibly the worst thing I could do for my health and my body made that loud and clear shortly after Christmas.
3. Think before I speak ~ It dawned on me last week that some (read: many) of the words coming out of my mouth lately have not been entirely positive. So I’m wearing a rubber band on my wrist and every time I complain (or snark) (or gossip), I move it to the other wrist as recognition that that is undesirable behavior.
4. Send loved ones birthday cards ~ The Internet is great and all but I’d like to send close family and friends birthday cards this year. Like real, paper, handwritten birthday cards - with a stamp on them.
5. Stop competing ~ This is a big one because somehow life became all about who can do it all and make it look the easiest. I’ve recognized that this is not a competition I can (or want to) win and I’m tired of feeling bad about it so I’m not playing anymore.
Last year I spent a lot of time thinking about what I want for myself in the future. I realized it’s actually pretty simple. I want to be happy, healthy, and giving. And even if I don’t execute these resolutions 100%, I know that my life will be better for trying. So, no pressure, no deadlines, just me trying to better myself.